Life Changes...

Sorry about my slacking when it comes to the blog... First our internet was being fickle, then I didn't know what to say, then I just got out of the habit. But either way, I'm baaaaaccckkk.

The truth? I still have a hard time writing because I simply don't know if I have anything important and/or interesting to say. Some of the topics I could spend time discussing just don't seem to have any real importance at all. Others have eternal importance, but I'm not sure how to word it. Here's the thing though, I prefaced this blog with the fact that it would be all over the place! So why am I surprised that it is?! Either way, I like having a blog and I will continue it now.

So I promised some life changes... Here's what has happened since I've been away: I have decided to apply to a Master's of Midwifery program.

Where did this come from, you may ask? Out of thin air. Or maybe God. I'm choosing to believe that it's an inspired idea by God and not just out of thin air... (Do we ever really know?!)

When I was just out of high school, I was leading Younglife with some of my absolute favorite friends on the planet. Most of us were around the same age and we were all in the same place with our future... undecided. So we took a weekend away to spend time with God and wise friends, and we actively seeked out our futures. I learned a lot during that trip, but what stuck with me the most was this...

God can't guide a ship that's docked.

Sometimes the only way to get any idea of what God wants for your future is to take the first step. He may only light one step at a time, but He will guide you if you just move forward.

So that is why I am committing to trying this Midwife thing. The truth is, I know it kind of came out of nowhere. And I don't know what God has in store for me. But this is what I do know... 1) The moment I thought "Hey, I could be a midwife" I knew it was right. 2) I have had such positive feedback from friends wiser than I. 3) Midwifery school is like 17x more difficult and expensive than I ever thought it would be, yet I still want to do it.

Do any of those things mean "it's right"? No. Do I believe that we have one destiny? No. That God has made us to do one thing and if we don't do that one thing we will fulfill nothing? Nope. I believe that we can do whatever we want. And as long as we are seeking God's will, He's going to bless us.

So that's my plan for now. Get my ship moving, and see where it leads.

What do you think?

xo/AustinJean

P.S. Next post will be about the magic that is dry shampoo... Just to warn you, so you don't get whiplash from the theme roller coaster that is the Hello, Huston blog. ;) (Why are there no emojis for the blog-verse)?